Friday ReflectionsJul 10, 2020
I wanted to take some time today to reach out and purely connect with you.
If you've been a part of my community for a while, you know I often feel called to be really vulnerable with you and share deeply what is going on for me personally.
During my journaling time this morning I had some intense emotions. I couldn't put my finger on it but something about today felt heavy even though I felt amazing when I woke up.
About an hour into my writing, my meditation music was interrupted with a call from my dad.
I had a weird feeling it wasn't a normal call.
After a few pleasantries, he went on to tell me that my cousin is extremely sick. She has stage four cancer. She's been given 6 months to live.
I haven't been in contact with her for over 20 years but I felt horrible about the news.
See, I decided long ago that I didn't vibe well with my family and therefore created a lot of distance with my relatives.
It's not that I think they're bad people or that I'm better than them in any way, it's just I never felt understood.
I always felt out of place.
The only one I ever felt understood by was and is my dad.
As my dad was telling me about my cousin, he started talking about how shaken he is by this news.
He feels terrible for his brother and his niece.
Then he said he's so shaken because he couldn't image how he would feel if my sisters or I ever got sick and he had to watch us die.
I could feel his pain. It was deep and intense and I had a desire to take care of him like he was a new born baby, hold him in my arms and soothe away his pain.
It's weird how we can feel ourselves in different roles throughout our lives.
One day we are a child and the next we are adults.
It happens really fast if you think about it.
This human experience is full of color, ups and down, highs and lows.
What are we to make of it all????
What is the purpose of it all???
And then it came to me....
The life we live is ours for the making. Some people will live in struggle. Some people will live in complete abundance.
It's what we make of our experience.
I'm currently reading "Can't Hurt Me" and the life this young boy had to endure when he was a child to where he is now, is purely the true tale of how we can create the life we WANT and DESIRE regardless of where we came from.
It's not always easy. In fact, it's often very difficult because we have to work with all of our pain. We can't escape it and if we try, it has a crazy way of sneaking up behind us and knocking us down HARD. That's why it's so important to do the deep healing work around our blocks and our pain.
Our families and our pasts will always be a part of who we are today. Our experiences will alway be a part of who we are. Our decisions good or bad, will always be a part of us.
The true test is how we show up and how we are as a whole.
It's not a snap shot moment like some picture you take of yourself blissfully experiencing your dream vacation.
It's the whole.
You are given a life.
You are given certain tools and experiences.
And I believe that at the end of our life, we are meant to look back and see just how damn far we came.
My deep desire is that every person leaves this earth feeling at peace with all their choices.
I know this won't always happen but I still desire deeply for people to feel healed and at peace with themselves.
So, no matter what decisions you've made along the way, the wrongs you have done, remember, you are deeply loved.
You are the hope I look for.
You are the ones that take your experiences and find peace with them, no matter how difficult they were to experience.
And with all of that, you help heal others as well. It's a ripple effect, heal yourself and heal others.
You're the reason, in this moment, that I felt a deep desire to connect.
See, I feel like you are more like my family. I'm very connected to how you feel and I have an intense desire to help you heal to the depths of your soul so when you leave the human experience, you do so in total peace around how your life played out.
I see you choosing the path to all the success you desire. I see you working your butt off. I see you giving your all.
And know that I am alway here if you need.
Healing work is the path to success...true success.
When you're healed, you can't be beat.
And it's a process.
With that, I want you to know you are so loved and appreciated.
Love and hugs,
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